Back to you

Hey everyone! So I don't think this blog is going to be very long. Then again, maybe I'll get going and it'll be very long..... so who knows? Welcome to the unknown.

First off, I just want to talk about Casper for a while. My first post was all about the negative experiences I was having with her, but this time I'm gonna dwell more on the positives. When I made this blog, part of it was because there was just a span of a few weeks in March where I just wasn't very happy. Alot of things were getting to me. However, I then began to realize that I'm so lucky to have this girl in my life... soooo lucky! And the more I would have a positive attitude about it, the better I felt about everything. I started becoming more like my normal, happy, somewhat talkative self, and I could see that it made her happier, too. We talk alot more like best friends rather than nervous, "I-have-a-crush-on-you," type people. We've kind of discussed the situation and we've agreed that dating right now might just lead to a bitter ending, especially because of age, time, and school, amongst other things. And I truly believe God's hand is on this relationship. Like, if there's one thing that gives me the most faith in God right now, it's how openly He's been working and revealing himself in our relationship. No lie.... it's stunning. But if we wait 'til we're older (which even though it's going to be hard, I'm more than willing to do), I feel everything will work out. And who knows- maybe she's the one? (Bold statement, I know) I like this girl to the point of sickness at her absence and dreams of her multiple times a week. I don't ever want to hurt her, disappoint her, lie to her, or lose her. I want to be able to be her best friend, to hold her when she's sad, to show her love when she feels abandoned, sad, disappointed, etc, even if it's just friendly love. (8) I know a girl, and she puts the colour inside of my world. (8)

Also, we had a gig this past Friday at a pub called "Pickles" out in the boonies. We were playing blues/jazz dinner music. The gig went sooooo well and it's all on tape :). The venue was awesome, too. There was a dance floor, big mirrors, a couple bars, pool tables, this little elevated staged with big, comfy chairs, and this little VIP-styled room in the back where all the musicians chilled. The gig went awesome and it was just a good time of chillin' with friends, getting compliments (:P), talking about music, and meeting new musicians. I want to do this alot more..... it's sooo fun. Once I get a car and my G2, it'll be even better. I'll be able to go out after and chill, and hey, maybe I could even bring Casper along. Ha! Calling her Casper for so long is wierd. I'm afraid I'll accidentally call her that when I'm talking to her.... that would be wierd. Oh, and I have this friend at school, and her birthday is coming up in May, and she's having a big bash out at her grandparents barn with like 30-40 people, and she wants us to play! I'm so excited! That's one of my dream venues, no lie! I'm pumped! (8) I'm so happy, feelin' snappy! My life is rosey, n' I'm feeling comfy-cozy!(8)

Anyways, I don't even know if anyone reads these, but if you do, thanks for listening. God Bless!

TSharr